What about me?

I pray for Allah will show us the way, will help us to pull it through together though I know the process along the way may not be easy. Just tawakal and pray that everything will turn out the way yg kami nak with the help from Allah.. Aamiin

Da habis da..

Eh da habis da journey kat UIA setakat ni. Huu. Macam xpercaya pon ada. Kalau tak, selalu gak la komplen bila la nak habis study ni.. Knapa macam lama sangat entah rasa. Orang lain macam da siap kerja ja. Hehe. Bila dah habis exam and habis semua like really really habis dan kena kemas semua barang-barang. Damn. Lainnya rasa. No more of 'k see you guys next semester' or things like that and the weekends in which I get to spend with Amed would be lain jugak as well. Sebab dah biasa dengan the fact that I'm on campus walaupon tak selalu sgt jumpa, bila dah habis and going home for good, rasanya ambil masa sikit lah kot nak adjust. Now kat rumah pon, macam rasa tgh cuti sem and will balik UIA next month. Haha. Nope. For now rasa nak rehat dulu kat rumah sama dengan kawan2 baikku yang lain. Amed cakap "Cuti ni think ah whant you want to do..That process is always interesting." Hehe I really hope so. I've yet to browse through Jobstreet.com to see what I would want to do. Resume dah ada lama dah. Tapi tu la, nak apply kena think betul2 lah.

Anyhoos, anak Ami Et ( arwah pakcik) punya anak sulung, Ikhmal got 5A's in UPSR. Congratulations. Ami Et would be proud if dia ada lagi. Missed him. Congratulations Abang! I always know you would nail it. Hehe.

Know what, hari apa entah, time kat UIA lagi ada la membe2 aku bagitau that the cost of kenduri kahwin sahaja now RM30, 000! Tak campur hantaran and stuff.What? I thought RM 20,000 plus plus macam dah mencukupi. Sasa kata tu zaman sekolah rendah. Huu awat mahai ngat... Whatever the case, kalau sampai macam tu, lambat lagi lah. Tp tak, Insyaallah boley minimize mana2 yang patut. I know Allah will show us the way. Aamin. We plan and berusaha and Allah do the rest.

Anyways, I'm looking forward to attending Sarah punya kawan punya kakak punya reception. Perkahwinan India Muslim. Kad sangat cantik ok! Macam Chocolate Bar. We would be seeing the bride pakai sari and stuff. Hee. Thrilled to go. Hope tak sesat.

Godbless!

Maukie - the virtual cat

I think I need help..

I would constantly worry of the safety of my loved ones. I would worry that something that would cause their lives would happen. I hate it when Amed goes to work with his motorbike, I hate it when Sarah does to, I worried when mak travel to other place further than her office let's say to Kedah maybe, I hate it when I had to endure the pain of waiting for them to text or call me to say that they have safely arrived. I feel the need for them to text me or call me at the very moment they are about to leave and the moment they arrive. I had lost two important person in my life. My father and uncle and both died in tragic accidents. I found it really hard to let my loved ones go on the road for fear something would happen. I really need help.

I watched The Oprah Winfrey Show just now, and I saw four persons who have faced one of the hardest phases in their lives. A woman has lost his son and husband in a plane crash. Another woman, saw her father killed her mom and later witnessed him commited suicides in front of her very eyes. They have succeeded battling with themselves and proven to see things from different angles and positively. They could easily give up, screw up their lives, be mad at God and what not. But they chose to see things differently, they chose to be optimistic and forgiving. I know that life does not always go in the way you always wanted and planned to be. But what I didn't know that, I should not worry of what might happen. It is not so much on the WHAT and WHY the worst things happened. It is more on HOW one is gonna deal with it as Oprah said. They have opened up my eyes in a sense that, you will at least face the hardest phase of your life once, regardless of losing your loved ones, battling with diseases, facing financial crisis or what not. I know that life is no strolling in the park and anything would happen but please don't worry too much on something that hasn't happen yet. I feel like I'm acting like a guard or something that they need to report when they're leaving and once they have arrived.

Me wanting them to text me saying that they have arrived is perfectly OK I think. What worries me is that, can I let them be on the road without feeling anxious, scared, and worry even before they text or call me saying they have safely arrive? Can I feel at ease by letting them go and thinking that everything will be fine. Can I not think of the bad things that might happen? Can I not feel like calling them 24/7 just so I know everything is perfectly fine?I need to talk to someone. I need to feel that I'm doing the right thing or am I having somekind of illness or OCD? Allah please help me...

It touched my heart..

It actually went like this.. I was lookin through some videos on "Ayat-Ayat Cinta" and one thing lead to another.. I watched a lot of videos on Americans, Koreans, Canadian, Finnish, Japanese, Australians stories on the revelation that have led them to revert to Islam from their religions on Youtube. It touched my heart deeply and I was close to tears seeing the light in their eyes and Subhanallah we should be thankful for we were born as Muslims and I pray to Allah that we all could improve ourselves for the better and be devout Muslims who obey Allah's commandment..Aamin.. it was a revelation.. Thank You Allah..

Some of the photos..wish to upload more.. but I'm too lazy..

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Tasniem made us proud that day!

sigh...

I don't really like the now toklet sometimes.. Not that I hate him, don't get me wrong. I just missed the old toklet. But I don't miss the "panas baran" though.. It's true sometimes it is stressful to jaga org2 tua and people might think that we've gotten bored of him..It's just sometimes.. tak tau nak explain, tapi kdg2 stress..

Have u ever realised that the biscuit "sekejap ada sekejap tak ada" tu bkn Chipsmore but Choc Fudge? Just a thought.

anywhos, this raya is the best raya in KL, ever.. I mean, it felt different.. maybe because, this time around we've got our place, kan? Last year lain.. sgt la boring and tak best.. boley dak p semayang raya, makan2 and pastu tidooq..like really really tidur.. huhu..

tahun ni, p sampai Seremban.. :)

Another good thing was that, my duit raya tahun ni went up a notch and I'm totally glad! It may be the last kot.. huhu.. da keja, xdapeklaaa.It would be unfair as I'm not married yet.But, that's the rule so no point of arguing, you see.hee.As a starter I decided to simpan hee..I pray that things will go well with me and Amed.. Aamin..