it's rather late..

mother's day has passed and I should have posted this entry on that very day but then the internet connections was so slow to even allow me to update my blog.. *sigh.. and I only remember to do so few minutes ago.. but never mind.. wanna wish my mak happy mother's day!! I definitely have hurted her at times but then after a while I was feeling guilty and saying sorry out loud was not very much a culture in our family.. so I ended up sending her smses every time I did anything wrong..
I still remember those times when I had to cope with my ayah's passing..just weeks or months after my ayah passed away..I was 9 then.. I would be awakened by my fear amidst my sleeps..I was scared of losing my mother.. I would check if she was still breathing every night.. and I would wake her up just so I knew she was there, and still breathing.. And she didn't know I was scared of that.. I just told her I couldn't sleep..and she consoled and lulled me into sleep and next thing I knew I was in my dreamland again..
We were pretty demanding at those period of times.. We requested for mak to buy us toys and I remember I wanted A Barbie and lots of Barbie's clothes to play with.. Mak bought them on the very next day..
I also remember those times when mak have to cope many challenges to raise us up.. Sometimes I would always have this thought on my mind.. It would have been better if Ayah was still here with us..Astaghfirullah..and then I realised everything has it's own wisdom and hikmah..

Mak would never let us down if we ever wanted anything.. even if she had to sacrifice she'd do it..I pray for Allah will never made me forget to repay for what she has done...
Ya Allah please love her just like the way she has always love me.. bless her and guide us to the right path.. May you shower our life with your rahmah.. for I love her and You so very much..

Maak, though I don't say this as often as I should... you are my everything.. my world.. my life.. this also goes to maktok who is my second mother and takes care of us since we were small up until now.. I love you both soo much.. mmmmuahh