Eid is coming..

Well, nothing new has happened lately and I'm now on Raya break.. Home now is in Putrajaya and we only go back to Jitra once in a blue moon. We will be celebrating Raya in KL again this year. I'm gonna miss out on a lot of get-together with my fellow schoolmates since I'm not gonna go back. So have fun, you guys.. I've missed each and everyone of you particularly my best buddies and not to mention teachers.. Anyways, Raya in KL is not at all that bad. It's just boring because we don't have that much of relatives here as compared to what we have in Kedah, of course.

I missed my arwah ayah terribly and there were the days that I ended up crying and thinking of him like it was just yesterday since he left. I felt like I'm a 9-year-old kid once again and I would remember those times when I couldn't sleep from watching horror movie. I would wake him up and he would entertain me until I doze off. He would massage my feet since me slalu lenguh2 kaki, would make a toothpick out of a match stick so that I could use it.. So many memories that I found so meaningful but painful all at the same time. I always wonder, can he see us now? It's 15 years since my ayah has passed away and yet all the memories with him still linger. I never want to forget those years that I spent with him. I really really hope that we would meet again in the hereafter. I'm so missing you so much ayah. I'm now 23 ayah. Remember those times we went for our family vacation in Penang, Langkawi, Singapore? Looking at our family photos would remind me of those times and I try to hold my tears everytime 'cos I know once I started to cry, it's really hard to stop. I've cried myself to sleep when I'm thinking of you. You died so young. I hope you are in a good place right now. I would never go a day without praying for you. May your soul be blessed by The Almighty, and may we become the soleh servant of Allah..

What would you do if a friend of yours doesn't treat you as her friend anymore? I would say, it's okay. Let her be and for me bitching and thinking and dwelling on what have become to us wouldn't do any good. So, listen to me, let her go her way and do everything her way. We are friends and forever will be. Pray to Allah for He will listen at all time. Don't let yourself be emotionally affected by these ya, friend?

To everyone who's gonna celebrate Raya, Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri. Maaf Zahir & Batin. I'm sorry for any of my wrongdoings and I know sometimes the word sorry isn't enough and can't change everything, but isn't the thought that counts? Whatever the case all apology accepted and love you guys..